tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-47138367086017009192012-02-16T03:58:03.101-07:00Living with Chronic Depression (or what happens when the light at the end of the tunnel turns out to be an on-coming train!)Robin Phillipsnoreply@blogger.comBlogger21100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4713836708601700919.post-62038014416616681842009-08-24T12:26:00.002-06:002009-08-24T12:57:34.561-06:00I wish I could start this life over again. You see, I don't know who I am anymore. Who is the real me? What is normal? I don't know what that feels like. How would I know if I got there even? What is my true character - my true personality?<br /><br />Sometimes I think I'm invisible. No one sees me. I'm a spectator of life and not a participant. Participants seem to know things instinctively - how to respond in different situations. I have no intuition for life. I was never programmed with that module.<br /><br />I don't think I was meant to live this life. I think I was meant to have died as a baby when I was so ill. People prayed for me and I lived. One moment I was sick, the next I was completely well. Sometimes, when I think about this, I wish to God they hadn't bothered! I'm so terribly disillusioned with this life.<br /><br />Like the Ring, this depression must be destroyed; like Frodo I am the one who must bear it....<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/4713836708601700919-6203801441661668184?l=mygethsemane.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Robin Phillipsnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4713836708601700919.post-73732018877812640602009-08-19T09:57:00.006-06:002009-08-19T11:59:15.873-06:00Frodo: "The ring is taking hold of me, Sam."<br />Sauron: "There is no life in the void."<br />Frodo: "I wish the ring had never come to me."<br />Lady Galadriel: "If you do not find a way no one will...."<br />Frodo: "It's getting heavier."<br />Lord Elrond: "The ring must be destroyed."<br />Gollum: "Master carries heavy, heavy burden."<br />Sam: "You must fight it, Mr. Frodo."<br />Frodo: "...only, I do not know the way."<br />Frodo: "I can't, Sam...."<br />The Witch-King: "Die now!"<br />Lady Galadriel: "To be a ring-bearer is to be alone...."<br />Frodo: "NNNOOOOoooooo!!!"<br />Gandalf: "The ring has a will of its own."<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/4713836708601700919-7373201887781264060?l=mygethsemane.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Robin Phillipsnoreply@blogger.com0